1 00:01:10,617 --> 00:01:12,617 It was a beautiful day, 2 00:01:12,617 --> 00:01:14,450 the first of May, 3 00:01:14,866 --> 00:01:16,659 five years ago. 4 00:01:17,575 --> 00:01:21,534 We were gathered here, on this beach, to see Youri off. 5 00:01:21,534 --> 00:01:22,825 You couldn't sleep? 6 00:01:23,242 --> 00:01:25,784 Youri was leaving on a several-month-long bike trip 7 00:01:26,450 --> 00:01:29,742 all the way to Istanbul, Turkey. 8 00:01:29,742 --> 00:01:31,700 It was a moment of joy 9 00:01:31,700 --> 00:01:33,158 and emotion. 10 00:01:33,158 --> 00:01:36,033 Sadly today, we don't feel the same joy. 11 00:01:36,700 --> 00:01:39,408 Youri, my eldest son, died a year ago. 12 00:01:42,866 --> 00:01:44,991 The idea of retracing his bike journey 13 00:01:45,367 --> 00:01:48,033 came to Philippe and me almost immediately. 14 00:01:49,617 --> 00:01:51,575 Cycling all the way to Istanbul, 15 00:01:52,158 --> 00:01:55,158 following in his footsteps, and who knows, 16 00:01:55,908 --> 00:01:57,824 maybe seeing him along the way 17 00:01:57,824 --> 00:02:01,283 and hearing this "Hi, Dad!" that I miss so terribly. 18 00:02:03,033 --> 00:02:05,617 It's great Philippe is going too. 19 00:02:07,242 --> 00:02:09,450 It's a beautiful show of friendship. 20 00:02:10,492 --> 00:02:13,158 Youri loved his trip 21 00:02:13,158 --> 00:02:14,866 and turned it into a book. 22 00:02:16,200 --> 00:02:19,116 It's wonderful to go with the book and see... 23 00:02:19,116 --> 00:02:20,242 the same landscapes. 24 00:02:20,825 --> 00:02:24,700 This book will be our bible, our roadmap. 25 00:02:24,700 --> 00:02:27,158 It isn't fully exposed but it's beautiful. 26 00:02:27,158 --> 00:02:28,492 And the one with the dog? 27 00:02:30,908 --> 00:02:33,700 There's something desperate about our initiative: 28 00:02:34,991 --> 00:02:38,367 Philippe is no spring chicken and I'm a little overweight! 29 00:02:41,534 --> 00:02:44,075 We're bound by our friendship of 20 years 30 00:02:44,742 --> 00:02:46,659 and our taste for physical challenges. 31 00:02:49,408 --> 00:02:51,783 We've never done sport together... 32 00:02:52,575 --> 00:02:55,700 We've never done any sport at all! 33 00:02:56,200 --> 00:02:59,325 - But we've fasted together. - With great success! 34 00:02:59,325 --> 00:03:00,866 That's for sure. 35 00:03:01,700 --> 00:03:03,408 As you know, Youri was a clown. 36 00:03:04,325 --> 00:03:07,367 On his trip, he performed in schools and the street. 37 00:03:07,367 --> 00:03:08,908 And we plan to do the same. 38 00:03:09,408 --> 00:03:11,283 Philippe, walk over here. 39 00:03:12,617 --> 00:03:14,659 Don't reveal everything at once! 40 00:03:14,659 --> 00:03:17,075 You can all see us off. 41 00:03:17,700 --> 00:03:18,991 The faint-hearted, look away! 42 00:03:21,117 --> 00:03:24,741 - We do all our own stunts. - We've no stand-ins. 43 00:03:24,741 --> 00:03:26,534 No body doubles. 44 00:03:26,908 --> 00:03:30,242 We're astronauts, where's our capsule? 45 00:03:30,741 --> 00:03:31,950 Right, let's go. 46 00:03:34,659 --> 00:03:35,741 Time to say goodbye. 47 00:03:39,908 --> 00:03:41,825 See you! 48 00:03:43,325 --> 00:03:44,492 We're off! 49 00:03:45,409 --> 00:03:46,575 Goodbye! 50 00:03:49,033 --> 00:03:50,908 See you at Christmas. 51 00:03:59,575 --> 00:04:00,908 Let's race. 52 00:04:01,575 --> 00:04:02,825 Let's race. 53 00:04:03,534 --> 00:04:04,950 You asked for it! 54 00:04:09,991 --> 00:04:11,534 Where's the finish line? 55 00:04:11,534 --> 00:04:13,325 Right here, I won! 56 00:04:14,950 --> 00:04:16,367 4.5 kilometers. 57 00:04:16,367 --> 00:04:17,700 Not bad. 58 00:04:19,117 --> 00:04:20,908 Isn't my dog beautiful? 59 00:04:20,908 --> 00:04:23,950 - Go, boy, go! - Be happy! 60 00:04:25,409 --> 00:04:26,575 Run! 61 00:04:35,242 --> 00:04:36,283 I'm hurting, man! 62 00:04:37,242 --> 00:04:38,409 I'm in pain! 63 00:04:38,950 --> 00:04:41,409 - Keep going! - I've had it. 64 00:04:47,492 --> 00:04:49,158 Let's do a ballet. 65 00:04:49,158 --> 00:04:50,700 The sore butt ballet! 66 00:04:52,367 --> 00:04:54,367 I got a midge in my eye. 67 00:04:54,367 --> 00:04:55,242 Stop. 68 00:04:58,075 --> 00:04:59,950 That should be enough! 69 00:05:00,992 --> 00:05:02,866 - Has it gone? - I think so. 70 00:05:03,200 --> 00:05:04,075 I don't see it. 71 00:05:14,117 --> 00:05:18,117 RIDE AWAY 72 00:05:37,741 --> 00:05:39,117 Come on, boy. 73 00:05:55,117 --> 00:05:56,242 Oh fuck. 74 00:05:57,200 --> 00:05:58,741 Let's fix a coffee. 75 00:05:58,741 --> 00:05:59,866 OK. 76 00:06:01,284 --> 00:06:02,575 Coffee, tea... 77 00:06:03,158 --> 00:06:04,825 - Croissants. - Breakfast! 78 00:06:06,992 --> 00:06:08,700 It's kind of small. 79 00:06:08,700 --> 00:06:10,325 It isn't for tall people. 80 00:06:28,242 --> 00:06:31,450 I bought this but I don't how it works. 81 00:06:32,575 --> 00:06:34,242 And you're asking me? 82 00:06:34,242 --> 00:06:36,033 - This is pretty. - Very. 83 00:06:36,033 --> 00:06:37,908 That clicks off. 84 00:06:39,075 --> 00:06:41,409 And this screws on. 85 00:06:42,284 --> 00:06:45,950 Millions of years of camping! It's in my blood, my DNA. 86 00:06:48,533 --> 00:06:50,783 Is it OK if I smoke near it? 87 00:06:51,450 --> 00:06:52,533 Just saying! 88 00:07:06,992 --> 00:07:08,117 Coming? 89 00:07:10,450 --> 00:07:11,492 Coming. 90 00:07:12,908 --> 00:07:14,117 Stay there, boy. 91 00:07:15,992 --> 00:07:17,741 Are you sure we can go in? 92 00:07:19,033 --> 00:07:20,200 Stay there, Lucky. 93 00:07:20,741 --> 00:07:21,908 It's locked. 94 00:07:28,409 --> 00:07:30,783 Churches instantly... 95 00:07:31,200 --> 00:07:32,325 soothe me. 96 00:07:32,325 --> 00:07:33,825 I'm not sure about me. 97 00:07:34,616 --> 00:07:35,950 It's pretty. 98 00:07:36,491 --> 00:07:39,159 Yeah, with that wallpaper. 99 00:07:40,700 --> 00:07:43,700 Maybe the priest's wife said, "Honey, let's wallpaper 100 00:07:43,700 --> 00:07:45,075 "the chapel." 101 00:07:45,075 --> 00:07:46,033 Priests don't have wives. 102 00:07:47,075 --> 00:07:47,992 It's a joke. 103 00:07:51,700 --> 00:07:54,117 Christ isn't at all soothing. 104 00:07:55,284 --> 00:07:58,533 - Christ crucified on the cross. - Well, no. 105 00:07:59,783 --> 00:08:01,325 Mary is soothing though. 106 00:08:01,325 --> 00:08:03,159 I was about to say that. 107 00:08:03,159 --> 00:08:06,159 Out of the whole gang, the one I like best, 108 00:08:06,159 --> 00:08:09,117 because I feel her hand on my shoulder, is Mary. 109 00:08:12,491 --> 00:08:13,450 D'you know this joke? 110 00:08:14,741 --> 00:08:17,992 Joseph says to Mary, "What?" 111 00:08:21,741 --> 00:08:23,575 Because he's never had... 112 00:08:23,575 --> 00:08:26,241 Mary tells Joseph she's pregnant. 113 00:08:26,241 --> 00:08:28,367 - "What?" - He goes, "What?" 114 00:08:31,325 --> 00:08:32,450 "What?" 115 00:08:35,409 --> 00:08:36,367 - Hang on. - "What?" 116 00:08:39,200 --> 00:08:40,159 "What?" 117 00:08:43,783 --> 00:08:45,367 Sorry, Lord. 118 00:08:45,367 --> 00:08:46,491 Forgive us. 119 00:08:47,117 --> 00:08:50,284 But joking aside, contemplation... 120 00:08:50,867 --> 00:08:53,533 I get the idea. It's a mix of meditation 121 00:08:53,992 --> 00:08:56,159 and an ongoing conversation. 122 00:08:56,159 --> 00:08:59,159 It's a place for people who believe 123 00:08:59,159 --> 00:09:02,284 there's something after, an afterlife. 124 00:09:02,950 --> 00:09:04,075 A hereafter. 125 00:09:04,491 --> 00:09:07,658 But it isn't the life after that interests you, 126 00:09:08,033 --> 00:09:09,575 it's the life before. 127 00:09:09,575 --> 00:09:10,742 It isn't. 128 00:09:11,159 --> 00:09:12,450 Or the life after. 129 00:09:12,450 --> 00:09:14,284 If there's a chance of seeing Youri... 130 00:09:15,325 --> 00:09:17,700 - What a pain! - We shouldn't mess about. 131 00:09:18,200 --> 00:09:20,033 He's trying to tell us something. 132 00:09:23,033 --> 00:09:26,491 The only way to see Youri is death. 133 00:09:27,575 --> 00:09:29,408 My only chance now, 134 00:09:29,408 --> 00:09:32,117 my only hope of seeing Youri, 135 00:09:32,117 --> 00:09:34,575 is in death, not in life. 136 00:09:38,200 --> 00:09:39,408 You've got it wrong. 137 00:09:56,325 --> 00:09:58,616 Watch out, a black cat! 138 00:09:58,616 --> 00:10:00,825 I don't believe in that curse. 139 00:10:00,825 --> 00:10:02,408 Black cats are bad luck. 140 00:10:02,867 --> 00:10:04,658 - Oh shit! - Watch out. 141 00:10:05,284 --> 00:10:06,325 You almost hit it! 142 00:10:06,325 --> 00:10:09,366 - 'Cause we were talking about that. - Precisely! 143 00:10:09,825 --> 00:10:11,992 Black cats spell disaster. 144 00:10:28,575 --> 00:10:31,366 Just after Youri died, I saw signs everywhere. 145 00:10:31,366 --> 00:10:33,284 Everything was an intervention. 146 00:10:35,408 --> 00:10:36,950 A butterfly, a bird. 147 00:10:37,867 --> 00:10:41,034 I saw Ys everywhere. Everything is a Y, look. 148 00:10:41,034 --> 00:10:43,783 That's a Y, a double Y even. 149 00:10:47,867 --> 00:10:49,284 We make nests 150 00:10:50,284 --> 00:10:51,783 for our signs. 151 00:10:51,783 --> 00:10:53,491 That is, signs... 152 00:10:54,992 --> 00:10:57,825 exist or don't exist. We make nests for them 153 00:10:57,825 --> 00:11:00,283 and if we start to look at everything, 154 00:11:00,658 --> 00:11:03,408 we see signs of Youri everywhere. 155 00:11:03,825 --> 00:11:06,200 I agree with you, I see Ys everywhere too. 156 00:11:07,034 --> 00:11:09,742 I see him and hear him everywhere too. 157 00:11:13,950 --> 00:11:15,533 And that's why we're here. 158 00:11:40,617 --> 00:11:43,325 Philippe in the Loire, Philippe in the trees? 159 00:11:43,325 --> 00:11:44,575 I don't know where he is. 160 00:11:45,909 --> 00:11:47,450 Where is Philippe? 161 00:11:47,450 --> 00:11:48,825 I don't know. 162 00:11:49,325 --> 00:11:51,366 I don't know where Philippe is. 163 00:12:30,241 --> 00:12:32,117 Tomorrow I will be 164 00:12:33,783 --> 00:12:35,241 On the road 165 00:12:35,783 --> 00:12:37,450 Riding away! 166 00:12:37,450 --> 00:12:38,783 Slow down! 167 00:12:44,283 --> 00:12:45,491 Wait for me! 168 00:12:50,783 --> 00:12:52,283 Shall we try that beach? 169 00:12:52,283 --> 00:12:55,159 - That tip over there? - The small one. 170 00:12:55,159 --> 00:12:56,825 - Straight ahead of us? - Yes. 171 00:12:56,825 --> 00:12:59,283 - What's behind it? - It looks like a beach, 172 00:12:59,283 --> 00:13:01,283 a gravel beach, like on the photo. 173 00:13:01,283 --> 00:13:02,617 - Let's go, then. - OK. 174 00:13:05,992 --> 00:13:07,408 This is it, Mathias. 175 00:13:15,533 --> 00:13:16,825 You're right. 176 00:13:16,825 --> 00:13:18,158 It's the exact spot. 177 00:13:32,658 --> 00:13:34,492 There's the tree on the left, 178 00:13:34,492 --> 00:13:36,492 the woods... 179 00:13:36,492 --> 00:13:38,325 the village up there. 180 00:13:40,700 --> 00:13:43,617 That embankment thing... is right here. 181 00:13:44,784 --> 00:13:46,950 See where the boats are? 182 00:13:46,950 --> 00:13:49,492 I'm positive, I can tell by the clump of trees. 183 00:13:49,992 --> 00:13:51,742 He's waving to us. 184 00:14:06,909 --> 00:14:08,617 Don't move, I'll take a photo. 185 00:14:14,742 --> 00:14:16,742 Adopt the same pose. 186 00:14:16,742 --> 00:14:20,283 The same pose as Youri. Look that way, bend down... 187 00:14:20,283 --> 00:14:22,492 - Like this? - And wave at me. 188 00:14:25,158 --> 00:14:26,241 Excellent. 189 00:14:29,450 --> 00:14:30,825 Now look at me. 190 00:14:55,909 --> 00:14:59,158 When I think of my mom, I know the dead are here for us. 191 00:14:59,700 --> 00:15:02,617 My dad is more available for me in death than in life. 192 00:15:02,617 --> 00:15:04,366 I get what you're saying. 193 00:15:04,992 --> 00:15:07,909 We watch over them and they watch over us. 194 00:15:07,909 --> 00:15:09,200 Constantly. 195 00:15:09,784 --> 00:15:12,200 My dad died too soon... 196 00:15:12,200 --> 00:15:14,617 - How old were you? - I was 42. 197 00:15:14,617 --> 00:15:15,950 I didn't miss much. 198 00:15:15,950 --> 00:15:18,200 Just five or ten years. 199 00:15:18,658 --> 00:15:22,825 If I'd been 50 or so, I'd have been more indulgent than at 40. 200 00:15:22,825 --> 00:15:24,700 I was hard at it at 40. 201 00:15:25,283 --> 00:15:29,241 He pissed me off more than anything else. 202 00:15:29,700 --> 00:15:31,325 I had no need for bonding. 203 00:15:32,325 --> 00:15:34,950 This is going to sound awful 204 00:15:35,450 --> 00:15:37,742 but I missed him terribly 205 00:15:38,408 --> 00:15:40,116 when Youri died. 206 00:15:42,033 --> 00:15:44,116 This kind of, you know... 207 00:15:44,116 --> 00:15:48,450 I wouldn't have been able to bear their grief. However... 208 00:15:50,158 --> 00:15:54,241 I'd have loved to have someone take my hand at that point 209 00:15:54,241 --> 00:15:57,200 and tell me how to deal with it. 210 00:15:57,200 --> 00:15:59,325 'Cause you're left on your own. 211 00:15:59,325 --> 00:16:01,950 They never lost a child, 212 00:16:02,408 --> 00:16:05,575 and I have to face this on my own. 213 00:16:06,450 --> 00:16:10,742 You'd have liked a dad to hug you and say, "It'll be OK, son." 214 00:16:10,742 --> 00:16:11,909 Yes. 215 00:16:11,909 --> 00:16:14,575 It's exactly that. I hear you. 216 00:16:14,575 --> 00:16:17,617 This thing of... 217 00:16:18,784 --> 00:16:21,367 - "We can get through this." - For sure, don't worry about it. 218 00:16:22,991 --> 00:16:25,241 I'm saying that, but I'm sure 219 00:16:25,575 --> 00:16:29,075 my mother's grief would have crushed me. 220 00:16:29,075 --> 00:16:30,533 My dad, I don't know. 221 00:16:30,533 --> 00:16:32,325 He was more reserved. 222 00:16:34,659 --> 00:16:36,659 If they'd been there, 223 00:16:36,659 --> 00:16:39,158 they'd have said: "It'll be OK, kid." 224 00:16:39,909 --> 00:16:42,533 - That's what I'm saying. - "It'll be OK, son." 225 00:16:45,492 --> 00:16:46,700 That's it, you see. 226 00:16:47,200 --> 00:16:50,492 I had that from friends, I had comfort from them, 227 00:16:50,492 --> 00:16:52,699 but I didn't have it 228 00:16:52,699 --> 00:16:55,617 from a superior authority, from something... 229 00:16:55,617 --> 00:16:57,533 Something that protects you. 230 00:16:57,533 --> 00:16:59,991 And that's parents. My parents were above me. 231 00:17:01,492 --> 00:17:03,157 I understand completely. 232 00:17:22,492 --> 00:17:23,784 This is it, 233 00:17:23,784 --> 00:17:26,242 the school where Youri first performed. 234 00:17:36,158 --> 00:17:37,450 Hello, children! 235 00:17:38,408 --> 00:17:39,700 Hello! 236 00:17:40,450 --> 00:17:42,408 Hello, Stéphane, it's Mathias. 237 00:17:43,116 --> 00:17:44,158 We're at the gate. 238 00:17:48,908 --> 00:17:51,116 - Welcome to Jougne. - Thank you. 239 00:17:54,617 --> 00:17:55,408 It's big! 240 00:17:57,116 --> 00:17:58,242 Right... 241 00:18:01,492 --> 00:18:02,534 Are you OK? 242 00:18:02,534 --> 00:18:04,534 Fine, just a bit freaked out. 243 00:18:07,200 --> 00:18:08,325 Thanks. 244 00:18:10,825 --> 00:18:12,742 I don't know if I'm sad or... 245 00:18:13,659 --> 00:18:15,283 happy to be here. 246 00:18:17,575 --> 00:18:19,492 - There's something... - I know. 247 00:18:19,492 --> 00:18:21,200 I know but... 248 00:18:21,908 --> 00:18:24,325 We don't know if we're happy or unhappy. 249 00:18:25,950 --> 00:18:28,367 Let's be happy. 250 00:18:28,367 --> 00:18:29,408 Let's be happy. 251 00:18:29,408 --> 00:18:30,950 If we have to choose, 252 00:18:31,367 --> 00:18:34,116 if we have the choice, let's be happy. 253 00:18:35,075 --> 00:18:36,617 Hello, hello. 254 00:18:36,617 --> 00:18:37,908 First of all, hello. 255 00:18:37,908 --> 00:18:39,450 First of all, hello. 256 00:18:39,450 --> 00:18:40,325 Philippe. 257 00:18:40,866 --> 00:18:42,991 Philippe, hello. 258 00:18:44,283 --> 00:18:45,700 And I'm Mathias. 259 00:18:49,283 --> 00:18:51,659 We're doing a bike trip 260 00:18:51,659 --> 00:18:53,700 all the way to Turkey. 261 00:18:54,534 --> 00:18:58,242 At every stop along the way, we're going to perform. 262 00:18:58,700 --> 00:18:59,991 We're apprentice clowns. 263 00:19:00,534 --> 00:19:03,283 - We're not professionals. - We're first graders. 264 00:19:03,283 --> 00:19:05,617 We're first grade clowns. 265 00:19:06,408 --> 00:19:07,784 So, this won't be easy. 266 00:19:07,784 --> 00:19:10,534 We're a little nervous. 267 00:19:11,283 --> 00:19:13,075 Ready, we're going to start. 268 00:19:16,534 --> 00:19:17,575 Now for some magic. 269 00:19:17,575 --> 00:19:18,866 Now for some magic. 270 00:19:23,200 --> 00:19:25,075 They're my legs! 271 00:19:25,075 --> 00:19:26,242 And now... 272 00:19:31,908 --> 00:19:32,991 Hey, magic! 273 00:19:45,783 --> 00:19:46,991 Come on, boy. 274 00:19:50,991 --> 00:19:52,242 That was great, eh? 275 00:19:53,617 --> 00:19:55,158 That was great. 276 00:19:55,158 --> 00:19:56,325 Yeah. 277 00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:06,450 Is it harder than I thought, 278 00:20:07,534 --> 00:20:09,033 this journey? 279 00:20:10,117 --> 00:20:13,575 Maybe. To be honest, I feel like bawling all the time. 280 00:20:14,117 --> 00:20:16,450 I thought the cycling would be hard, 281 00:20:17,450 --> 00:20:20,617 that the physical pain would lessen my suffering, right? 282 00:20:21,158 --> 00:20:23,158 But the pain doesn't lessen it. 283 00:20:26,325 --> 00:20:28,283 What's hard for you? 284 00:20:28,700 --> 00:20:30,450 Seeing me? 285 00:20:30,866 --> 00:20:32,575 - I'm not sure. - The journey? 286 00:20:32,575 --> 00:20:35,950 Retracing his journey, thinking of Youri, everything. 287 00:20:36,700 --> 00:20:40,200 I decided to retrace Youri's journey 288 00:20:40,200 --> 00:20:42,492 as a way of... 289 00:20:43,741 --> 00:20:46,617 keeping him alive. 290 00:20:46,617 --> 00:20:48,659 For me, each stage... 291 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:50,741 That's why we're here. 292 00:20:50,741 --> 00:20:53,783 It's very moving and, at the same time, 293 00:20:53,783 --> 00:20:56,409 each stage reminds me he's dead. 294 00:21:01,325 --> 00:21:03,659 Did I ever tell you about my pal Roberto? 295 00:21:03,659 --> 00:21:05,741 When I was younger, 12 years old, 296 00:21:06,866 --> 00:21:10,950 we decided to play baseball at the local playing field. 297 00:21:12,075 --> 00:21:14,741 As we were about to play, two guys turned up 298 00:21:14,741 --> 00:21:18,700 on a scooter and said, "Give us your bat, glove and ball!" 299 00:21:18,700 --> 00:21:20,908 They wanted to mug us, basically. 300 00:21:21,409 --> 00:21:24,075 I said to Roberto, "Give them the lot, let's go." 301 00:21:24,075 --> 00:21:25,950 I was a nice middle-class kid, 302 00:21:25,950 --> 00:21:28,950 I didn't want to be disfigured by aggressive guys. 303 00:21:29,950 --> 00:21:31,492 And he said, "No. 304 00:21:31,492 --> 00:21:33,950 "I'm not giving them my stuff. 305 00:21:33,950 --> 00:21:35,783 "A baseball bat costs loads." 306 00:21:35,783 --> 00:21:39,117 He wasn't scared, even though he was half my size. 307 00:21:39,117 --> 00:21:41,033 I fled. 308 00:21:42,242 --> 00:21:44,575 I literally ran away. 309 00:21:48,242 --> 00:21:50,783 But I won't run away this time. 310 00:21:55,158 --> 00:21:56,575 Funnily enough, 311 00:21:56,575 --> 00:21:59,617 I want to say I'm here for you. 312 00:21:59,617 --> 00:22:02,325 I'm here for you, lean on me. 313 00:22:02,325 --> 00:22:05,616 No, we're here for each other. 314 00:22:06,284 --> 00:22:07,950 We're doing this together. 315 00:22:08,741 --> 00:22:11,075 Don't say you're here for me. 316 00:22:11,450 --> 00:22:14,700 We're here for each other. I'm here for you, too. 317 00:22:14,700 --> 00:22:18,117 Imagine me on my own, like an idiot, 318 00:22:18,117 --> 00:22:21,284 cycling all day long. This makes sense, you see? 319 00:22:21,284 --> 00:22:23,492 It makes sense to do this together. 320 00:22:24,033 --> 00:22:26,242 I don't have many friends. 321 00:22:26,242 --> 00:22:29,450 For me, sharing something 322 00:22:29,450 --> 00:22:30,700 is already huge. 323 00:22:30,700 --> 00:22:32,534 So sharing this journey... 324 00:22:34,117 --> 00:22:36,075 I've gained weight since it all. 325 00:22:36,450 --> 00:22:38,325 Stress does that to you. 326 00:22:38,325 --> 00:22:39,992 No. A dietician told me, 327 00:22:40,783 --> 00:22:44,783 "You gain weight because you store up your emotions." 328 00:22:44,783 --> 00:22:47,700 I said to him, "But I cry all the time." 329 00:22:47,700 --> 00:22:50,200 "You only cry a tenth of what you should." 330 00:22:51,658 --> 00:22:54,575 OK, let's lose weight with a tear cure. 331 00:22:54,950 --> 00:22:57,866 - A tear cure... - Will our abs show after? 332 00:22:57,866 --> 00:23:00,450 Will I have Ronaldo's abs? 333 00:23:02,033 --> 00:23:04,158 I get the feeling it won't happen! 334 00:23:07,700 --> 00:23:09,033 How about we turn in? 335 00:23:09,992 --> 00:23:12,575 - Let's go to bed. - OK, in a bit. 336 00:23:12,575 --> 00:23:14,492 Lucky, you could've tidied up! 337 00:23:16,575 --> 00:23:20,492 Seeing as he's a friend, he could help with the chores. 338 00:23:20,492 --> 00:23:22,700 He'll lick the plates! 339 00:23:32,284 --> 00:23:34,075 It's insane. 340 00:23:34,075 --> 00:23:35,409 What is? 341 00:23:35,409 --> 00:23:37,075 I can't sleep without you. 342 00:23:38,158 --> 00:23:39,992 - I won't be long. - What an old couple! 343 00:23:40,367 --> 00:23:42,367 Don't worry, I'm right here. 344 00:23:42,867 --> 00:23:43,867 I'll read you a story. 345 00:23:59,075 --> 00:24:00,825 Wake up by the Rhine! 346 00:24:08,075 --> 00:24:09,409 Someone's coming. 347 00:24:13,117 --> 00:24:14,533 They'll never take us. 348 00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:17,491 Great, a motor home! 349 00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:19,825 He's stopping. 350 00:24:55,908 --> 00:24:57,325 Why pedal like crazy? 351 00:24:57,325 --> 00:25:00,325 You stop every 150 meters. Stop when it's beautiful! 352 00:25:00,325 --> 00:25:02,242 I stop every 20km! 353 00:25:02,242 --> 00:25:03,992 - How many have we done? - No idea. 354 00:25:03,992 --> 00:25:06,159 You said it was a cycle path. 355 00:25:06,159 --> 00:25:09,491 This is a path... for making sandcastles! 356 00:25:09,491 --> 00:25:12,533 But I don't know this path! 357 00:25:12,533 --> 00:25:14,867 We're discovering it together. 358 00:25:14,867 --> 00:25:16,575 Don't blame me. 359 00:25:16,575 --> 00:25:18,491 No one is waiting for us. 360 00:25:18,491 --> 00:25:21,117 This is like cycling through sponge! 361 00:25:21,117 --> 00:25:22,367 I'm managing fine. 362 00:25:22,367 --> 00:25:25,200 You've got 39 gears, I've got 14. 363 00:25:25,200 --> 00:25:27,658 I'm 60, you're 55. 364 00:25:27,658 --> 00:25:28,992 You've got a top bike. 365 00:25:28,992 --> 00:25:31,491 This is like the Amazon! 366 00:25:31,491 --> 00:25:34,033 Do you get me? What the hell's this? 367 00:25:34,033 --> 00:25:35,700 Was this on the map? 368 00:25:37,450 --> 00:25:39,450 I'm gonna have to get wet again! 369 00:25:39,450 --> 00:25:41,950 No, you're not, you can cycle across. 370 00:25:42,575 --> 00:25:44,325 Take a run-up, you'll make it. 371 00:25:44,867 --> 00:25:46,284 Take a run-up, you'll make it! 372 00:25:47,575 --> 00:25:49,742 The dog can do it. Go on, boy! 373 00:25:50,367 --> 00:25:51,867 The dog's going to cross it. 374 00:25:52,783 --> 00:25:53,825 Here goes! 375 00:25:54,867 --> 00:25:56,450 Keep going. 376 00:25:59,783 --> 00:26:01,284 It's impossible. 377 00:26:01,783 --> 00:26:02,908 The proof! 378 00:26:04,033 --> 00:26:06,159 Just get your feet wet! 379 00:26:06,159 --> 00:26:07,908 No way, I'm already... 380 00:26:08,575 --> 00:26:09,658 Smart ass! 381 00:26:10,075 --> 00:26:11,867 Get out of the way. 382 00:26:14,616 --> 00:26:16,491 Get out of here! 383 00:26:17,159 --> 00:26:18,825 Come on, boy! 384 00:26:25,117 --> 00:26:26,783 I can go on that. 385 00:26:26,783 --> 00:26:29,117 - Are you sure? - It's fine. 386 00:26:29,117 --> 00:26:30,117 The big wheel... 387 00:26:30,117 --> 00:26:31,992 You can go up there? 388 00:26:31,992 --> 00:26:34,034 - Up there? Sure. - What about vertigo? 389 00:26:45,992 --> 00:26:47,742 - OK, Lucky... - Stay here. 390 00:26:47,742 --> 00:26:49,616 Your evening won't be much fun. 391 00:26:50,200 --> 00:26:52,950 - We won't be long. - We'll get you beer and sausages. 392 00:26:53,408 --> 00:26:54,908 See you later, boy. 393 00:26:54,908 --> 00:26:56,284 It's sad. 394 00:26:56,284 --> 00:27:00,325 That looks a bit scary, but I've always loved funfairs. 395 00:27:01,034 --> 00:27:04,908 - Or ducasses, like you say up north. - That's right. 396 00:27:04,908 --> 00:27:06,783 The place more than the rides. 397 00:27:06,783 --> 00:27:08,742 There'd be an empty lot, 398 00:27:08,742 --> 00:27:11,992 then all of a sudden, a wonderland would appear. 399 00:27:11,992 --> 00:27:14,533 - We're lousy. - I'm shooting for the stars! 400 00:27:14,533 --> 00:27:16,450 Try to hit the roses. 401 00:27:24,117 --> 00:27:26,950 As a kid, I loved those planes that took off. 402 00:27:26,950 --> 00:27:30,575 Someone always pinched my spot. 403 00:27:30,575 --> 00:27:34,700 I wanted what others had. Some kid would beat me every time. 404 00:27:35,408 --> 00:27:37,450 Let's go on the ghost train first. 405 00:27:38,283 --> 00:27:39,992 I hope it isn't too scary. 406 00:27:39,992 --> 00:27:41,450 - I love screaming. - Me too! 407 00:27:57,034 --> 00:27:57,867 Cheers! 408 00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:00,200 We've been this way. 409 00:28:00,200 --> 00:28:02,242 We haven't, you're just plastered. 410 00:28:04,658 --> 00:28:06,242 Makes me want a beer with friends. 411 00:28:17,325 --> 00:28:18,658 What a wonderful honeymoon. 412 00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:27,034 On the left. 413 00:28:28,950 --> 00:28:30,450 Careful, it's turning red. 414 00:28:33,992 --> 00:28:35,117 Isn't it right here? 415 00:28:35,117 --> 00:28:36,034 Ja! 416 00:28:38,325 --> 00:28:40,700 This is it! Our bus is here. 417 00:28:45,658 --> 00:28:47,241 I told you so! 418 00:28:52,325 --> 00:28:54,075 Give me your helmet. 419 00:28:54,075 --> 00:28:55,408 You want to keep it? 420 00:28:56,992 --> 00:28:59,617 - We can't leave Lucky in there! - Come on, boy. 421 00:29:06,700 --> 00:29:09,366 Just 8 hours 40 minutes to go. 422 00:29:09,742 --> 00:29:11,700 We'll get there fast at this rate. 423 00:29:13,241 --> 00:29:16,034 We need the mini bar before we run out of ammo. 424 00:29:16,034 --> 00:29:17,408 It's in another car. 425 00:29:17,408 --> 00:29:19,200 We need to visit this bus. 426 00:29:20,117 --> 00:29:22,533 - And go shopping! - We haven't looked around. 427 00:29:22,533 --> 00:29:24,034 The door's open! Let's split. 428 00:29:29,159 --> 00:29:31,241 - Don't count the hours. - I'm not. 429 00:29:31,241 --> 00:29:33,825 We arrive tomorrow morning. 430 00:29:33,825 --> 00:29:35,450 It takes a day and a night. 431 00:29:35,450 --> 00:29:37,450 I'm counting the minutes! 432 00:29:37,450 --> 00:29:39,575 Would you rather be cycling? 433 00:29:41,241 --> 00:29:42,742 To tell the truth, yes. 434 00:29:43,617 --> 00:29:44,742 Surprisingly. 435 00:29:44,742 --> 00:29:47,992 Yes, because it's you who asked to take the bus. 436 00:29:47,992 --> 00:29:49,075 True. 437 00:29:49,533 --> 00:29:50,575 I wish I hadn't. 438 00:29:52,867 --> 00:29:55,783 - It'd be fun to cycle on the highway. - Yeah. 439 00:29:57,117 --> 00:30:00,325 Imagine he drives off when we're unloading the bikes, 440 00:30:00,325 --> 00:30:02,992 and we hang on so as not to... 441 00:30:02,992 --> 00:30:05,158 We get dragged along... 442 00:30:05,158 --> 00:30:08,117 - We're like this. - Like two illegals. 443 00:30:20,283 --> 00:30:22,575 The fear of cancer maybe. 444 00:30:22,575 --> 00:30:24,533 I'm not afraid of dying. 445 00:30:24,533 --> 00:30:26,366 I'm afraid of dying for my kids. 446 00:30:26,867 --> 00:30:31,867 What could scare you now? I understand because we're similar. 447 00:30:31,867 --> 00:30:33,867 It's too late to be afraid of dying. 448 00:30:34,700 --> 00:30:35,867 We're on our way. 449 00:30:35,867 --> 00:30:37,200 We're on the bus. 450 00:30:37,200 --> 00:30:40,283 I wouldn't like my kids to be sad. 451 00:30:41,700 --> 00:30:42,742 That's all. 452 00:30:43,700 --> 00:30:45,158 But... 453 00:30:45,158 --> 00:30:47,366 - You can't prevent that. - That's right. 454 00:30:47,366 --> 00:30:49,575 Whether you die now or in 20 years. 455 00:30:49,575 --> 00:30:50,742 In 20 years' time, 456 00:30:50,742 --> 00:30:53,075 it isn't the same thing. 457 00:30:53,075 --> 00:30:57,408 That's where I agree with you about quitting smoking. 458 00:30:57,408 --> 00:30:59,492 I need to buy a bit of time. 459 00:31:00,241 --> 00:31:02,492 If my kids are 12 and 15, 460 00:31:02,492 --> 00:31:05,241 it isn't the same as them being 32. 461 00:31:09,450 --> 00:31:11,492 Like I said the other day, 462 00:31:11,492 --> 00:31:13,283 a father or a mother, 463 00:31:13,742 --> 00:31:15,408 we always need them. 464 00:31:16,575 --> 00:31:18,116 See how nice it is, 465 00:31:18,116 --> 00:31:20,909 the talks you have with your 85-year-old dad... 466 00:31:20,909 --> 00:31:22,116 I agree with you. 467 00:31:22,116 --> 00:31:25,158 They're useful. They also help you... 468 00:31:26,241 --> 00:31:30,575 Him too, I think. The cycle changes. 469 00:31:31,075 --> 00:31:35,617 It's like my dad... has become my son. 470 00:31:35,617 --> 00:31:38,825 We've been given time. 471 00:31:39,492 --> 00:31:43,450 When he takes his last breath, I'll take him in my arms. 472 00:31:43,450 --> 00:31:45,742 Like when I wanted him to hug me as a kid. 473 00:31:51,492 --> 00:31:53,784 Fuck, what's going on in Austria? 474 00:31:55,909 --> 00:31:57,784 I must be allergic to a tree. 475 00:32:09,492 --> 00:32:11,283 I understand a bit. 476 00:32:11,283 --> 00:32:12,408 German is better. 477 00:32:15,241 --> 00:32:17,700 I'll explain the apartment now. 478 00:32:19,950 --> 00:32:21,909 This is the eating space. 479 00:32:24,492 --> 00:32:25,575 Cooking. 480 00:32:25,950 --> 00:32:27,033 Essen means eat. 481 00:32:29,283 --> 00:32:30,742 We can't eat. 482 00:32:30,742 --> 00:32:33,158 I don't want crumbs on my sofa. 483 00:32:33,158 --> 00:32:35,241 I don't like the crumbs at the mosque. 484 00:32:35,700 --> 00:32:36,742 The what? 485 00:32:40,742 --> 00:32:42,200 All right. 486 00:32:42,200 --> 00:32:45,742 - She doesn't like crumbs... - No crumbs on the carpet. 487 00:32:45,742 --> 00:32:46,950 Right! 488 00:32:49,909 --> 00:32:51,283 Or punishment! 489 00:32:59,283 --> 00:33:01,367 The translation is hilarious! 490 00:33:06,283 --> 00:33:07,116 Good. 491 00:33:09,533 --> 00:33:10,492 The fridge. 492 00:33:10,950 --> 00:33:11,867 This is mine. 493 00:33:17,408 --> 00:33:18,700 - Us. - You two. 494 00:33:19,200 --> 00:33:20,408 This, no. 495 00:33:22,991 --> 00:33:23,950 Of course. 496 00:33:23,950 --> 00:33:25,700 Do not raid the freezer. 497 00:33:34,200 --> 00:33:36,158 You're good, you understand! 498 00:33:37,700 --> 00:33:40,283 The shower. Always squeegee. 499 00:33:40,283 --> 00:33:41,450 All right. 500 00:33:41,450 --> 00:33:42,700 But not... 501 00:33:47,784 --> 00:33:50,116 Always get undressed after a shower. 502 00:33:52,116 --> 00:33:53,283 Yes? Squeegee. 503 00:33:58,116 --> 00:34:00,283 - Come! - You go, she freaks me out. 504 00:34:01,575 --> 00:34:02,574 Sleep. 505 00:34:07,616 --> 00:34:08,908 Yeah, the door. 506 00:34:10,784 --> 00:34:12,575 Semi-open in daytime. 507 00:34:14,617 --> 00:34:16,200 Semi-open in daytime. 508 00:34:16,616 --> 00:34:17,991 Right, well... 509 00:34:23,950 --> 00:34:25,075 Swimming? 510 00:34:25,492 --> 00:34:27,075 Swimming? 511 00:34:30,492 --> 00:34:31,534 Left! 512 00:34:38,659 --> 00:34:39,534 Nice. 513 00:34:41,408 --> 00:34:43,158 The swans are not our friends. 514 00:34:45,950 --> 00:34:47,033 Strip off. 515 00:34:53,325 --> 00:34:55,325 We don't have all day! 516 00:34:56,700 --> 00:34:58,283 Go on, Philippe! 517 00:35:08,283 --> 00:35:09,991 It's a bit like jail but it's nice! 518 00:35:11,367 --> 00:35:12,575 Good evening! 519 00:35:15,325 --> 00:35:17,408 No thank you, no breakfast. 520 00:35:17,408 --> 00:35:20,033 She's nice actually. She offered us breakfast. 521 00:35:24,784 --> 00:35:25,908 I can't get out! 522 00:35:27,242 --> 00:35:28,158 What? 523 00:35:28,158 --> 00:35:29,950 I didn't gain weight in here! 524 00:35:29,950 --> 00:35:32,325 - Of course you didn't. - I'm stuck! 525 00:35:32,325 --> 00:35:36,033 You scrubbed yourself with fattening soap, buddy! 526 00:35:36,033 --> 00:35:37,908 - How'd you get in? - I don't know. 527 00:35:37,908 --> 00:35:39,617 But I can't get out. 528 00:35:39,617 --> 00:35:41,742 Come on, you're not oversize. 529 00:35:41,742 --> 00:35:43,617 - Move! - I'm staying put. 530 00:35:43,617 --> 00:35:44,908 Fuck! 531 00:35:45,617 --> 00:35:46,700 There we go. 532 00:35:49,075 --> 00:35:50,866 - You idiot. - That's easier. 533 00:35:52,991 --> 00:35:54,742 What's going on? 534 00:35:56,283 --> 00:35:57,659 She freaks me out. 535 00:35:58,075 --> 00:36:00,617 She's cute but scary. 536 00:36:01,991 --> 00:36:03,783 So you're semi-open? 537 00:36:03,783 --> 00:36:05,283 Yeah, I'm semi-open. 538 00:36:06,367 --> 00:36:08,534 Semi-open and punishment. 539 00:36:15,450 --> 00:36:16,450 Squeegee, ja! 540 00:36:24,866 --> 00:36:27,534 - She scared the wits out of me! - Me too. 541 00:36:27,991 --> 00:36:29,659 It's really scary. 542 00:36:35,742 --> 00:36:36,866 Oh my God! 543 00:36:43,617 --> 00:36:44,825 No way! 544 00:36:45,242 --> 00:36:46,534 No way! 545 00:36:50,033 --> 00:36:51,908 My son Youri 546 00:36:52,409 --> 00:36:55,283 stayed with you five years ago. 547 00:36:55,991 --> 00:36:57,325 Do you remember? 548 00:37:32,075 --> 00:37:33,659 Just look at the Danube. 549 00:37:33,659 --> 00:37:35,033 That's the Danube? 550 00:37:38,534 --> 00:37:39,783 It's pretty on this side. 551 00:37:58,033 --> 00:37:59,492 When Youri died... 552 00:38:00,075 --> 00:38:04,117 I didn't want to feel guilty or look for a culprit. 553 00:38:04,117 --> 00:38:08,200 I didn't want to blame the medication or anything, 554 00:38:08,783 --> 00:38:10,575 or say it's the fault... 555 00:38:10,575 --> 00:38:14,075 of his last love. I really didn't want... 556 00:38:14,741 --> 00:38:18,534 to shift the blame. It was my fault as a father. 557 00:38:18,534 --> 00:38:19,908 It wasn't. 558 00:38:19,908 --> 00:38:23,367 I didn't want there to be any guilt of any kind. 559 00:38:24,242 --> 00:38:25,658 But that's impossible. 560 00:38:26,075 --> 00:38:27,534 It's like looking... 561 00:38:27,866 --> 00:38:30,866 for the piece of a puzzle with tons of pieces. 562 00:38:30,866 --> 00:38:32,908 He took the last piece with him. 563 00:38:32,908 --> 00:38:34,158 We can't finish it. 564 00:38:34,158 --> 00:38:37,492 But you were a good dad, you were good parents. 565 00:38:37,492 --> 00:38:38,992 It isn't about that. 566 00:38:38,992 --> 00:38:41,075 His decompensation, which resulted... 567 00:38:41,450 --> 00:38:45,700 in his committing suicide, had nothing to do with your parenting. 568 00:38:46,200 --> 00:38:47,658 I don't know how to put it. 569 00:38:47,658 --> 00:38:49,783 Decompensation comes from elsewhere. 570 00:38:49,783 --> 00:38:52,284 But you can't, we can't... 571 00:38:52,284 --> 00:38:54,741 We mustn't look for the piece of the puzzle. 572 00:38:55,325 --> 00:38:58,325 And I forbid you to feel guilty. 573 00:38:58,325 --> 00:39:00,575 - It doesn't work like that. - I know... 574 00:39:00,575 --> 00:39:02,908 I forbade myself to feel guilty too. 575 00:39:02,908 --> 00:39:05,409 But in fact you can't... 576 00:39:05,866 --> 00:39:08,367 stop yourself from being consumed by it. 577 00:39:08,783 --> 00:39:10,492 It's like something... 578 00:39:10,492 --> 00:39:12,534 But God knows I... 579 00:39:16,616 --> 00:39:18,409 Fuck, I know, buddy, 580 00:39:18,409 --> 00:39:20,158 but I forbid you, 581 00:39:20,950 --> 00:39:23,033 I forbid you to go there. 582 00:39:39,950 --> 00:39:42,575 We have more booze than water! 583 00:39:44,158 --> 00:39:45,616 Right, well, 584 00:39:45,616 --> 00:39:48,534 you manage your water, I'll manage my booze. 585 00:39:48,950 --> 00:39:49,950 This is for this morning. 586 00:39:54,158 --> 00:39:57,284 I'd like to be remembered by the people who've known me, 587 00:39:57,284 --> 00:39:59,242 but the next generation won't. 588 00:39:59,242 --> 00:40:02,158 I've no ambition to leave a mark. 589 00:40:02,534 --> 00:40:03,783 Or a work? 590 00:40:03,783 --> 00:40:06,409 A mark, a work... I'm done with all that. 591 00:40:06,409 --> 00:40:07,950 - Self-fulfillment? - No. 592 00:40:08,616 --> 00:40:10,450 You don't get that through work? 593 00:40:10,450 --> 00:40:15,616 No, you feel it when you're dead or in your last breath: 594 00:40:15,616 --> 00:40:16,867 "I did a great job!" 595 00:40:18,950 --> 00:40:20,325 - Stroke. - Only kidding! 596 00:40:22,284 --> 00:40:24,658 I would really like... 597 00:40:24,658 --> 00:40:26,908 I'm a pretty funny guy, aren't I? 598 00:40:28,533 --> 00:40:29,700 Come on, I am. 599 00:40:30,242 --> 00:40:32,325 But will I have the strength 600 00:40:32,325 --> 00:40:35,450 to make a last pun, will my last words be a joke? 601 00:40:36,450 --> 00:40:38,575 Will I pretend to die before I die? 602 00:40:38,575 --> 00:40:39,867 The whole family's there, 603 00:40:39,867 --> 00:40:41,158 and you go... 604 00:40:42,200 --> 00:40:44,700 - And everyone goes... - That doesn't happen. 605 00:40:45,284 --> 00:40:46,325 What? 606 00:40:46,325 --> 00:40:49,533 Moments like that. You die when people go for a smoke! 607 00:40:50,159 --> 00:40:54,159 Palliative care guys say no one believes in their own death. 608 00:40:54,159 --> 00:40:56,533 Until the last minute, you think you'll live. 609 00:40:57,159 --> 00:41:00,242 Even when you're dying. The priest is there 610 00:41:00,242 --> 00:41:03,367 doing this over you: "Go on!" and you shout, "No!" 611 00:41:04,992 --> 00:41:07,200 With that throat cancer device... 612 00:41:10,616 --> 00:41:12,950 "What did he say? I didn't catch that." 613 00:41:12,950 --> 00:41:14,242 "It needs adjusting. 614 00:41:16,284 --> 00:41:17,700 "Damn, there's music!" 615 00:41:19,242 --> 00:41:20,491 Only kidding! 616 00:41:22,616 --> 00:41:26,033 We're laughing now, but it'll happen to us one day. 617 00:41:26,033 --> 00:41:26,867 For sure. 618 00:41:29,950 --> 00:41:31,533 You had Youri at 28? 619 00:41:33,242 --> 00:41:36,908 That's young, that is. When I think about it, at 28 620 00:41:36,908 --> 00:41:38,658 I wasn't... 621 00:41:39,491 --> 00:41:41,825 What's the word? I wasn't... 622 00:41:41,825 --> 00:41:43,950 - Me neither. - What's the word? 623 00:41:43,950 --> 00:41:46,200 - Well-aligned. - I had no spine. 624 00:41:46,741 --> 00:41:49,409 At 28, all I thought about was smoking weed. 625 00:41:49,741 --> 00:41:53,200 Thank God I didn't have a kid. Thank God I didn't make love then! 626 00:41:56,491 --> 00:41:57,700 Yeah, 28 is young. 627 00:42:01,741 --> 00:42:02,992 This is drinking water. 628 00:42:02,992 --> 00:42:05,117 But my grandpa used to do this... 629 00:42:05,908 --> 00:42:08,658 There was a tub, and he'd be noisy. Like this... 630 00:42:10,075 --> 00:42:11,450 That's what feels great. 631 00:42:14,491 --> 00:42:16,075 He had baby skin. 632 00:42:17,117 --> 00:42:18,783 - Let's do that in Turkey. - What? 633 00:42:18,783 --> 00:42:20,367 Get a Turk's face. 634 00:42:21,742 --> 00:42:22,950 A Turk's face! 635 00:42:24,616 --> 00:42:26,658 Show me what it looks like. 636 00:42:26,658 --> 00:42:27,867 These guys look great. 637 00:42:30,117 --> 00:42:32,033 I don't have enough hair 638 00:42:32,033 --> 00:42:33,700 - for a chevron moustache. - You do. 639 00:42:34,783 --> 00:42:37,159 You don't need much for this. 640 00:42:37,159 --> 00:42:40,242 We'll get you a nice greased-back haircut too. 641 00:42:40,700 --> 00:42:42,491 What a haircut! 642 00:42:42,491 --> 00:42:43,992 I'm up for that. 643 00:42:45,075 --> 00:42:47,075 I'll see how I look with a blow-dry. 644 00:42:49,033 --> 00:42:51,242 - I'd love to go there. - Where? 645 00:42:51,867 --> 00:42:54,658 To the statue of Yuri Gagarin. 646 00:42:55,825 --> 00:42:56,616 Then we'll go. 647 00:42:57,575 --> 00:42:59,159 - Where is it? - I don't know. 648 00:43:05,200 --> 00:43:06,867 Hear that creak-creak-creak? 649 00:43:06,867 --> 00:43:08,992 - Yes. - It sounds like an old LP. 650 00:43:08,992 --> 00:43:10,284 Listen. 651 00:43:10,284 --> 00:43:11,742 A crackly old LP. 652 00:43:12,575 --> 00:43:13,867 Hang on. 653 00:43:13,867 --> 00:43:15,284 Fuck, you're right! 654 00:43:15,284 --> 00:43:16,616 Let's play a vinyl. 655 00:43:16,616 --> 00:43:19,658 Put the needle down like this... 656 00:43:19,658 --> 00:43:21,284 and there's this moment of it. 657 00:43:48,533 --> 00:43:52,284 When you said a cycle path, I imagined something flat. 658 00:43:53,325 --> 00:43:54,658 - What? - Stupid me! 659 00:43:55,325 --> 00:43:56,242 What'd you say? 660 00:43:56,242 --> 00:43:58,658 When you said, "We'll take a cycle path," 661 00:43:59,450 --> 00:44:02,117 I imagined this flat path across Europe. 662 00:44:02,992 --> 00:44:06,200 I realize that's impossible, but I'll fall out with the path 663 00:44:06,200 --> 00:44:08,783 if it's hilly the whole way. 664 00:44:08,783 --> 00:44:10,950 I didn't say it was flat to Turkey! 665 00:44:43,408 --> 00:44:45,992 I've just had a funny thought. 666 00:44:49,825 --> 00:44:51,742 I'd like, at the end of my life, 667 00:44:51,742 --> 00:44:54,658 for people to say, and to be able to say myself, 668 00:44:54,658 --> 00:44:55,783 "He was a good guy." 669 00:44:57,075 --> 00:45:00,366 As I was saying that I thought, "What is a good guy?" 670 00:45:00,366 --> 00:45:03,117 What makes a guy good? 671 00:45:03,742 --> 00:45:06,408 Is it possible to be a good guy? 672 00:45:08,159 --> 00:45:10,366 Is it possible to please everyone 673 00:45:10,366 --> 00:45:13,617 around you and in the world, to be a good guy? 674 00:45:14,366 --> 00:45:15,658 I'm not sure it is. 675 00:45:19,200 --> 00:45:21,867 Like a yearning for forgiveness. 676 00:45:22,491 --> 00:45:26,366 Something like that. I was talking about a good guy, 677 00:45:26,366 --> 00:45:28,034 but what's a good father? 678 00:45:28,034 --> 00:45:32,575 What does it mean to be a good man to your children and partner? 679 00:45:32,575 --> 00:45:34,200 What is a good person? 680 00:45:35,241 --> 00:45:37,200 Was Jesus a good guy? 681 00:45:37,533 --> 00:45:39,491 That's my question! 682 00:45:39,491 --> 00:45:41,450 Wandering about in sandals... 683 00:45:43,075 --> 00:45:45,075 I get the feeling I've improved. 684 00:45:46,034 --> 00:45:48,742 That's the meaning of life: doing better and better. 685 00:45:48,742 --> 00:45:50,283 Better and better, yes. 686 00:45:51,992 --> 00:45:54,450 We're good guys because we strive to be. 687 00:45:54,450 --> 00:45:57,034 To the last, we strive to be good guys, 688 00:45:57,034 --> 00:45:58,366 we strive to improve. 689 00:45:58,366 --> 00:46:00,325 That's what a good guy is. 690 00:46:00,325 --> 00:46:02,617 - Improving... - It isn't saying, "I'm great." 691 00:46:03,159 --> 00:46:06,159 It's "I still have work to do to be a good guy, 692 00:46:06,159 --> 00:46:08,366 "I won't have finished by the time I die, 693 00:46:09,617 --> 00:46:11,075 "but I'll have progressed." 694 00:46:11,909 --> 00:46:15,658 It's funny, I never much thought about the meaning of life. 695 00:46:17,533 --> 00:46:18,783 Until now. 696 00:46:21,450 --> 00:46:22,992 Being alive was enough. 697 00:46:22,992 --> 00:46:26,783 But Youri's death made me. It made me... 698 00:46:26,783 --> 00:46:29,825 It's such an absurdity. 699 00:46:31,158 --> 00:46:34,117 You can't make sense of it. 700 00:46:35,575 --> 00:46:38,742 You can't look for meaning in it, so... 701 00:46:56,867 --> 00:46:58,867 That's Matthias Church. 702 00:46:58,867 --> 00:47:00,658 It's named after me! 703 00:47:01,450 --> 00:47:02,533 It's beautiful. 704 00:47:03,825 --> 00:47:05,241 All that for God! 705 00:47:05,241 --> 00:47:07,200 It's for St. Matthias. 706 00:47:14,909 --> 00:47:16,784 I want to snap my dog. 707 00:47:16,784 --> 00:47:17,742 Go on. 708 00:47:19,992 --> 00:47:21,658 The trembling dog! 709 00:47:23,867 --> 00:47:25,034 See you later, buddy. 710 00:47:25,450 --> 00:47:26,533 See you. 711 00:47:27,992 --> 00:47:30,116 What do you expect from this trip? 712 00:47:30,492 --> 00:47:31,742 I'm wondering myself. 713 00:47:31,742 --> 00:47:34,825 What do I expect? I don't have the answer. 714 00:47:34,825 --> 00:47:36,784 Apart from accompanying you. 715 00:47:37,241 --> 00:47:39,867 I expect something, or rather I hope for it. 716 00:47:40,325 --> 00:47:41,700 So yes, I expect it. 717 00:47:42,658 --> 00:47:43,950 Relief. 718 00:47:44,366 --> 00:47:45,366 All right. 719 00:47:47,575 --> 00:47:49,492 Relief through realizing it, 720 00:47:50,075 --> 00:47:52,034 doing the whole journey, 721 00:47:52,450 --> 00:47:53,617 in its entirety. 722 00:47:54,784 --> 00:47:58,158 Do you think you'll feel consolation at the end? 723 00:48:01,325 --> 00:48:03,116 Are you starting to sense 724 00:48:03,116 --> 00:48:05,158 a form of consolation? 725 00:48:05,158 --> 00:48:09,450 "I've come to terms with this tragedy. I no longer see it as such." 726 00:48:09,450 --> 00:48:12,366 It's impossible to come to terms with. 727 00:48:12,992 --> 00:48:15,533 As you said, it's what Youri is inspiring us to do, 728 00:48:16,325 --> 00:48:20,200 inspiring me to do, inspiring me to become. 729 00:48:20,200 --> 00:48:22,867 We were discussing good guys. 730 00:48:23,408 --> 00:48:25,617 - I'm a better guy since he died. - I agree. 731 00:48:25,617 --> 00:48:27,825 It's a terrible thing to say. 732 00:48:28,408 --> 00:48:30,658 I agree, but it's the truth. 733 00:48:30,658 --> 00:48:33,742 Something has opened up within me: my heart. 734 00:48:34,283 --> 00:48:35,909 I think and live differently. 735 00:48:35,909 --> 00:48:38,200 Everything changed all at once. 736 00:48:38,742 --> 00:48:40,367 This journey is bringing... 737 00:48:42,283 --> 00:48:44,784 It's bringing plenty of... 738 00:48:45,408 --> 00:48:47,700 plenty of freedom, plenty of... 739 00:48:48,992 --> 00:48:52,325 How can I put it? I was going to say joy. 740 00:48:52,325 --> 00:48:55,533 It's like a breath of air, a breath of oxygen. 741 00:48:57,658 --> 00:49:00,075 Like you, I imagine, 742 00:49:00,075 --> 00:49:02,116 every day I say to Youri, 743 00:49:02,575 --> 00:49:06,742 "Just look at your dad, his old pal, and the old dog. 744 00:49:07,241 --> 00:49:09,700 "We're looking for you. 745 00:49:09,700 --> 00:49:12,158 "We're paying tribute to you." 746 00:49:12,158 --> 00:49:14,033 On my bike, it's all I talk about. 747 00:49:15,116 --> 00:49:18,825 "It sucks you gave us this lesson, but it's a real lesson." 748 00:49:21,450 --> 00:49:26,367 Hey, gorgeous, it's Doudou. I wanted to give you my news. 749 00:49:26,367 --> 00:49:28,909 Right now we're... 750 00:49:29,492 --> 00:49:32,283 at St. Matthias, a really massive church 751 00:49:32,283 --> 00:49:33,700 in Budapest. 752 00:49:34,283 --> 00:49:36,575 What else can I tell you? 753 00:49:37,784 --> 00:49:40,825 It's quite an ordeal. I miss the kids. 754 00:49:41,408 --> 00:49:43,033 But I can't tell Mathias 755 00:49:43,033 --> 00:49:46,742 I want to see them when he'll never see his son again, 756 00:49:47,492 --> 00:49:49,033 so it's difficult. 757 00:49:50,158 --> 00:49:52,659 It's tiring but it's OK. 758 00:49:52,659 --> 00:49:54,075 We're making progress. 759 00:49:54,075 --> 00:49:57,659 I think Mathias is... Could I say happy? 760 00:49:58,033 --> 00:49:59,533 Mathias is... 761 00:50:00,784 --> 00:50:02,283 He's getting somewhere. 762 00:50:02,991 --> 00:50:05,825 Call me when you get a chance. 763 00:50:06,492 --> 00:50:07,909 Bye, gorgeous. 764 00:50:56,492 --> 00:50:59,283 It's delicious. You don't know what you're missing. 765 00:50:59,283 --> 00:51:01,116 No, you don't know! 766 00:51:01,116 --> 00:51:02,825 I know exactly what I'm missing. 767 00:51:03,492 --> 00:51:05,116 - Try this. - This is sugar. 768 00:51:05,116 --> 00:51:06,450 This is a slimming aid. 769 00:51:07,200 --> 00:51:10,033 It puts holes in your stomach. 770 00:51:10,033 --> 00:51:12,742 - But this... - It grows your stomach! 771 00:51:13,866 --> 00:51:16,784 It fills your stomach and gets rid of the holes. 772 00:51:17,908 --> 00:51:20,075 We need a mixed stomach. 773 00:51:20,075 --> 00:51:21,659 A bit of yours and mine. 774 00:51:21,659 --> 00:51:24,116 - Yours must be well protected. - It is. 775 00:51:24,116 --> 00:51:25,492 Pour some schnapps in it. 776 00:51:25,825 --> 00:51:26,866 That makes holes. 777 00:51:26,866 --> 00:51:30,991 - This adds padding. - Know what? It'll kill us in the end. 778 00:51:30,991 --> 00:51:33,367 That's a stroke. 779 00:51:33,367 --> 00:51:36,242 That's diabetes and a stroke. You get amputated 780 00:51:36,242 --> 00:51:38,534 then croak of a stroke in your wheelchair! 781 00:51:39,116 --> 00:51:40,908 Whereas I'll die right away. 782 00:52:16,950 --> 00:52:18,033 Dracula's castle! 783 00:52:18,950 --> 00:52:22,742 You'd need to suck lots of blood to buy yourself that! 784 00:52:25,742 --> 00:52:29,200 Maybe they sell vials of blood. Let's just have a quick look. 785 00:52:53,492 --> 00:52:55,408 They're saying straight on. 786 00:52:55,408 --> 00:52:57,117 It's pretty obvious. 787 00:52:57,117 --> 00:52:58,200 Thank you. 788 00:53:01,534 --> 00:53:03,700 Shit, more mutts! 789 00:53:04,325 --> 00:53:06,700 Romania is a giant dog farm. 790 00:53:08,783 --> 00:53:10,158 Shut it! 791 00:53:10,158 --> 00:53:11,825 Shut up! 792 00:53:12,950 --> 00:53:17,242 It's a wild dog farm. On Mondays they release 100. 793 00:53:17,741 --> 00:53:19,741 It's how they say, "Welcome to Romania!" 794 00:53:19,741 --> 00:53:21,450 They're pretty friendly. 795 00:53:23,783 --> 00:53:25,283 We're back on the road to Brasov. 796 00:53:26,617 --> 00:53:29,075 - Not bad. - It's 96 km. 797 00:53:30,075 --> 00:53:32,033 - Let's keep going. - OK. 798 00:53:32,659 --> 00:53:33,617 To the town center. 799 00:53:38,117 --> 00:53:39,783 What the fuck! 800 00:53:40,617 --> 00:53:41,575 What the fuck! 801 00:53:41,575 --> 00:53:42,741 Turn right. 802 00:53:44,575 --> 00:53:46,741 Yeah, I'm trying to get out of here, 803 00:53:46,741 --> 00:53:48,367 off this shitty road. 804 00:53:52,492 --> 00:53:54,866 Do they grow toilet paper in Romania? 805 00:53:55,783 --> 00:53:57,534 It certainly looks like it! 806 00:53:57,991 --> 00:53:59,783 Look at the pretty sunset. 807 00:53:59,783 --> 00:54:01,325 Where's the tobacconist's? 808 00:54:02,534 --> 00:54:03,950 It's pretty but... 809 00:54:04,866 --> 00:54:09,283 we're miles from anywhere with three huge mutts. 810 00:54:09,283 --> 00:54:12,409 Forget the dogs. We're out of their range. 811 00:54:12,825 --> 00:54:14,492 Mathias, we're in Romania. 812 00:54:14,492 --> 00:54:18,825 I've nothing against Romanians, but we're in the wilds of Romania, 813 00:54:18,825 --> 00:54:21,450 not the Normandy countryside. 814 00:54:21,450 --> 00:54:26,117 - I never said it'd be Airbnb... - And I never said I'd risk my life. 815 00:54:26,117 --> 00:54:27,659 - You're not! - I am too. 816 00:54:27,659 --> 00:54:30,700 The fact I'm scared means I'm risking my life. 817 00:54:30,700 --> 00:54:34,200 After a car almost plowed into me at the roundabout... 818 00:54:34,200 --> 00:54:37,033 They're a bit rock 'n' roll, like you. 819 00:54:37,033 --> 00:54:39,575 But when a guy's a bit lively, you have a meltdown. 820 00:54:39,575 --> 00:54:42,242 He was doing 120 kph and almost ran into me! 821 00:54:42,242 --> 00:54:45,158 - He was a bit lively. - A bit lively? Take him as a friend, 822 00:54:45,158 --> 00:54:47,992 the lively guy doing 120 kph! 823 00:54:47,992 --> 00:54:50,242 I almost died, for fuck's sake! 824 00:54:50,242 --> 00:54:52,158 I'm not here to risk my life. 825 00:54:53,367 --> 00:54:54,908 You might not give a fuck, 826 00:54:55,325 --> 00:54:56,908 but I fucking do! 827 00:54:57,908 --> 00:54:59,741 You really don't give a fuck! 828 00:55:00,283 --> 00:55:01,367 Shit! 829 00:55:01,700 --> 00:55:03,158 Reassure me: 830 00:55:03,158 --> 00:55:06,158 Say, "Yeah, Phil, it was dangerous." 831 00:55:06,158 --> 00:55:07,658 Say, "Yeah, it was dangerous." 832 00:55:08,075 --> 00:55:11,283 Yeah, it was dangerous, and more so because you're plastered! 833 00:55:11,283 --> 00:55:12,367 You scare me. 834 00:55:12,367 --> 00:55:14,700 It isn't fast cars that scare me, it's you! 835 00:55:15,492 --> 00:55:18,242 You scare me too. But I don't hassle you 836 00:55:18,242 --> 00:55:20,866 about your overeating, do I? 837 00:55:21,325 --> 00:55:22,534 - It scares me. - Why? 838 00:55:22,534 --> 00:55:25,616 Carlos, the singer, died from it! 839 00:55:25,616 --> 00:55:28,492 Eating won't get me run over by a car! 840 00:55:28,492 --> 00:55:29,700 How do you know? 841 00:55:29,700 --> 00:55:32,492 I wouldn't say, "He got hit 'cause he ate too much." 842 00:55:32,908 --> 00:55:34,534 I'd say, "A bad driver hit him." 843 00:55:35,033 --> 00:55:38,409 What would you say? "He got hit 'cause he was plastered"? 844 00:55:38,409 --> 00:55:39,783 Some friend you are! 845 00:55:42,200 --> 00:55:43,367 Is it that... 846 00:55:44,825 --> 00:55:46,492 that you'll say about me? 847 00:55:46,492 --> 00:55:48,908 "The guy got run over 'cause he was plastered." 848 00:55:49,908 --> 00:55:53,658 The car was doing 20 kph, I was cycling at 160 kph and cut him off? 849 00:55:54,575 --> 00:55:55,825 I'm not stupid. 850 00:55:56,367 --> 00:55:58,075 A wino isn't stupid! 851 00:56:00,866 --> 00:56:02,575 A friend isn't a traitor! 852 00:56:03,534 --> 00:56:07,242 He shouts "Asshole!" at the guy who almost hit his pal on his bike! 853 00:56:10,242 --> 00:56:12,158 He was plastered 'cause he was scared. 854 00:56:12,908 --> 00:56:14,825 He was plastered 'cause he was sad! 855 00:56:29,117 --> 00:56:30,825 Nearest campsite. 856 00:56:30,825 --> 00:56:31,616 What? 857 00:56:32,075 --> 00:56:33,658 I've found a campsite. 858 00:56:35,075 --> 00:56:38,616 Good. That's all I wanted. I'm not asking for much. 859 00:56:39,242 --> 00:56:41,825 - Just to be safe. - It's OK, forget it. 860 00:56:41,825 --> 00:56:43,450 - I'm sorry. - Me too. 861 00:56:43,450 --> 00:56:46,200 I was afraid, so... 862 00:56:46,200 --> 00:56:49,367 I was scared too. We shouted because we were scared. 863 00:56:50,284 --> 00:56:52,242 We argue over nothing. 864 00:56:52,242 --> 00:56:54,117 We're dead tired, that's all. 865 00:56:54,117 --> 00:56:58,200 - The red dots go together. - OK. There was no thingy. 866 00:56:58,200 --> 00:57:00,616 It wasn't clear for me. I get it now. 867 00:57:02,075 --> 00:57:04,700 Better late than never, as my mom used to say. 868 00:57:05,117 --> 00:57:07,117 My late mom was really annoying. 869 00:57:07,450 --> 00:57:08,783 I'm becoming like her. 870 00:57:10,367 --> 00:57:11,741 It's a problem. 871 00:57:11,741 --> 00:57:13,616 It's called aging. 872 00:57:13,616 --> 00:57:14,950 There's no escaping it. 873 00:57:14,950 --> 00:57:16,658 Shit, it's raining, let's hurry. 874 00:57:19,200 --> 00:57:20,658 Fuck, more mutts! 875 00:57:23,575 --> 00:57:26,908 - What's with the phone? - He likes the videos for dogs. 876 00:57:26,908 --> 00:57:29,616 He thinks the guy on TV is...? 877 00:57:30,658 --> 00:57:32,075 He enjoys the videos. 878 00:57:34,533 --> 00:57:36,367 Imagine if we were like him. 879 00:57:39,867 --> 00:57:41,200 You're watching TV and... 880 00:57:42,950 --> 00:57:44,825 I had this aunt, Marie-Louise, 881 00:57:45,908 --> 00:57:47,117 who'd spit at her TV. 882 00:57:47,783 --> 00:57:50,159 If she saw a rightwing guy, she'd spit. 883 00:57:50,908 --> 00:57:53,575 Sometimes she'd get it wrong: "Oh no, he's communist!" 884 00:57:54,117 --> 00:57:55,325 Then she'd wipe the screen. 885 00:57:57,908 --> 00:58:01,325 In this book, Richard Brautigan hears a girlfriend has died, 886 00:58:02,409 --> 00:58:04,575 he tells another friend and says: 887 00:58:06,616 --> 00:58:08,533 "Words are flowers of nothing. 888 00:58:09,409 --> 00:58:10,575 "I love you." 889 00:58:11,533 --> 00:58:12,616 Goodnight. 890 00:58:13,616 --> 00:58:14,950 It's so beautiful. 891 00:58:14,950 --> 00:58:17,950 "Words are flowers of nothing. I love you." 892 00:58:45,950 --> 00:58:47,033 Paris! 893 00:58:51,908 --> 00:58:53,408 Can't you go faster? 894 00:59:08,533 --> 00:59:11,200 THE PICTURE CABIN 895 00:59:12,408 --> 00:59:13,450 Hello! 896 00:59:15,700 --> 00:59:17,658 - Are you French? - Yes! 897 00:59:17,658 --> 00:59:19,242 We saw that, 898 00:59:19,742 --> 00:59:22,616 and we're camping. Could we camp here? 899 00:59:22,616 --> 00:59:24,117 Sure, no problem. 900 00:59:24,867 --> 00:59:26,159 That's cool. 901 00:59:26,159 --> 00:59:27,367 Thank you, Emile. 902 00:59:29,284 --> 00:59:31,658 - You don't mind, then? - I'm Mathias. 903 00:59:32,200 --> 00:59:33,700 Nice to meet you, Laurent. 904 00:59:33,700 --> 00:59:36,616 - Where have you come from? - From Paris. 905 00:59:36,616 --> 00:59:38,867 Hello, sir, nice to meet you. 906 00:59:38,867 --> 00:59:41,075 We've come from Montreuil. 907 00:59:41,075 --> 00:59:42,325 We're cyclists. 908 00:59:42,325 --> 00:59:43,408 I'm Norman. 909 00:59:43,408 --> 00:59:46,992 You don't mind if we pitch our tent here? 910 00:59:46,992 --> 00:59:49,200 There's plenty of space, look. 911 00:59:49,200 --> 00:59:51,825 Make yourselves comfortable. 912 00:59:51,825 --> 00:59:53,200 Your house burned down? 913 00:59:53,908 --> 00:59:56,533 You really shouldn't smoke in bed! 914 00:59:56,533 --> 00:59:57,950 It was a real blow. 915 00:59:57,950 --> 01:00:00,284 It burned down 18 months ago. 916 01:00:03,366 --> 01:00:05,284 It's tough, but it is what it is. 917 01:00:05,783 --> 01:00:07,825 So you're a photographer? 918 01:00:07,825 --> 01:00:10,867 You're a Norman in Romania, 919 01:00:10,867 --> 01:00:12,533 in deepest Romania. 920 01:00:13,075 --> 01:00:15,575 The Norman of the Carpathians. 921 01:00:15,575 --> 01:00:17,742 And we run into him! 922 01:00:18,117 --> 01:00:21,366 We thought about the dangerous bears, the wolves, 923 01:00:21,366 --> 01:00:23,533 not the Norman of the Carpathians! 924 01:00:23,533 --> 01:00:25,159 What brings you here? 925 01:00:25,159 --> 01:00:26,491 Actually, we're retracing 926 01:00:27,159 --> 01:00:29,533 the journey my son did five years ago. 927 01:00:29,533 --> 01:00:32,034 He cycled from La Rochelle 928 01:00:32,034 --> 01:00:34,117 all the way to Turkey. 929 01:00:35,117 --> 01:00:36,200 And in fact, 930 01:00:37,159 --> 01:00:40,867 he hung himself a year ago. 931 01:00:42,658 --> 01:00:43,450 And so... 932 01:00:45,825 --> 01:00:49,742 in tribute to him, we're retracing his journey 933 01:00:49,742 --> 01:00:51,284 as a way to remember him. 934 01:00:51,825 --> 01:00:54,117 We got on our bikes 935 01:00:54,117 --> 01:00:57,242 and we're cycling to Istanbul, to meet Marzi. 936 01:00:57,783 --> 01:00:59,867 Marzi is the last woman 937 01:00:59,867 --> 01:01:01,992 Youri said "I love you" to. 938 01:01:01,992 --> 01:01:04,825 It isn't a sad journey, it's... 939 01:01:06,575 --> 01:01:08,200 How can I put it? 940 01:01:08,742 --> 01:01:10,825 It's an ode to life in fact. 941 01:01:10,825 --> 01:01:14,950 We won't find him, but we're keeping him alive, eh? 942 01:01:14,950 --> 01:01:18,783 I feel that we're doing it in order to find something... 943 01:01:18,783 --> 01:01:21,533 to make life out of death. 944 01:01:21,908 --> 01:01:24,658 We don't know what we'll find at the end of it. 945 01:01:24,658 --> 01:01:27,159 But it certainly isn't easy. 946 01:01:27,700 --> 01:01:29,117 What did he do in life? 947 01:01:29,533 --> 01:01:30,658 He was a clown. 948 01:01:30,658 --> 01:01:32,366 - That was his job? - Yes. 949 01:01:32,366 --> 01:01:33,992 Clown and musician. 950 01:01:34,867 --> 01:01:36,909 He made a living by street performing. 951 01:01:37,617 --> 01:01:39,159 So we're doing... 952 01:01:39,159 --> 01:01:40,658 We've trained as clowns. 953 01:01:40,658 --> 01:01:43,867 We do a number with the dog and a magic act. 954 01:01:45,034 --> 01:01:47,325 Would it be indiscreet to ask 955 01:01:47,325 --> 01:01:51,909 why he committed suicide? Did he leave a note? 956 01:01:52,491 --> 01:01:55,159 No, he didn't leave a note. 957 01:01:55,575 --> 01:01:57,159 It was a combination of events. 958 01:01:57,159 --> 01:01:58,950 There's no reason for it. 959 01:01:58,950 --> 01:02:01,491 Suicide is a mental illness that kills. 960 01:02:01,491 --> 01:02:04,700 - But you look for a reason. - As a father, for sure. 961 01:02:04,700 --> 01:02:07,159 There was a host of reasons. 962 01:02:07,159 --> 01:02:11,241 It's linked to childhood too, so you look at that... 963 01:02:11,241 --> 01:02:14,366 - And you feel guilty. - Yes, of course. 964 01:02:15,617 --> 01:02:17,909 Who's never thought of ending it all? 965 01:02:18,533 --> 01:02:22,200 You think about it but you know you won't do it. 966 01:02:22,867 --> 01:02:25,783 Did you consider it after the fire? 967 01:02:25,783 --> 01:02:28,325 No, I was just very sad. 968 01:02:28,325 --> 01:02:31,325 But when you're depressed 969 01:02:31,325 --> 01:02:34,658 or at the end of your rope, you want to end it all. 970 01:02:34,658 --> 01:02:36,117 It happens. 971 01:02:36,117 --> 01:02:39,867 You don't want to die, you want out of your current life. 972 01:02:39,867 --> 01:02:41,617 You don't act on your thoughts. 973 01:02:41,617 --> 01:02:44,117 Some people do, obviously. 974 01:02:44,117 --> 01:02:46,658 But it isn't something they think out. 975 01:02:47,283 --> 01:02:50,408 My favorite actor took three days to kill himself. 976 01:02:50,408 --> 01:02:54,742 Yet for those three days, all the signs he gave out were upbeat. 977 01:02:54,742 --> 01:02:56,450 Then he suddenly went through with it. 978 01:02:56,450 --> 01:02:58,950 You could see it as temporary insanity. 979 01:02:58,950 --> 01:03:02,034 Sometimes it doesn't kill, sometimes it does. 980 01:03:02,034 --> 01:03:03,783 Suicide kills. 981 01:03:03,783 --> 01:03:06,533 My temporary insanity lasted over two months 982 01:03:06,533 --> 01:03:08,783 but I never contemplated suicide. 983 01:03:08,783 --> 01:03:11,909 I had within me what Camus calls "an invincible summer". 984 01:03:11,909 --> 01:03:13,575 I just didn't want to go mad. 985 01:03:14,117 --> 01:03:18,325 We shouldn't look for the reasons, because there aren't any. 986 01:03:18,742 --> 01:03:20,992 - It's tough for those left behind. - Of course. 987 01:03:20,992 --> 01:03:23,617 And when it's a reversal of roles. 988 01:03:23,617 --> 01:03:27,075 Of course, when it's not in the natural order of things. 989 01:03:27,075 --> 01:03:29,617 Your kid should see you die... 990 01:03:29,617 --> 01:03:32,575 That's why I think it's brave 991 01:03:32,950 --> 01:03:35,075 what you're both doing. 992 01:03:36,450 --> 01:03:38,075 We're trying to maintain life. 993 01:03:38,075 --> 01:03:41,784 I've done lots all year. I've always done things... 994 01:03:43,200 --> 01:03:45,450 well, for Youri, to keep him alive. 995 01:03:45,450 --> 01:03:48,241 We're retracing his journey, finding the paths, 996 01:03:48,241 --> 01:03:52,075 the photos he took, and recreating them. 997 01:03:52,075 --> 01:03:54,325 We're going to see Marzi too. 998 01:03:54,325 --> 01:03:55,992 So there's something... 999 01:03:56,575 --> 01:04:00,283 joyful about it. We're finding joy along the way. 1000 01:04:23,075 --> 01:04:24,742 We'll do our little show. 1001 01:04:44,575 --> 01:04:46,075 Magic, magic. 1002 01:04:46,992 --> 01:04:48,116 It's here. 1003 01:05:23,658 --> 01:05:25,075 It's a balloon! 1004 01:05:40,075 --> 01:05:42,992 - I'm a booze passenger. - You're a booze passenger. 1005 01:05:49,158 --> 01:05:51,033 I'm not at all a bon vivant. 1006 01:05:51,033 --> 01:05:53,784 I'm a corpse, I'm all dead. 1007 01:05:53,784 --> 01:05:55,492 No, you're a bon vivant. 1008 01:05:55,492 --> 01:05:57,617 No, I'm a dead bon vivant! 1009 01:06:02,867 --> 01:06:04,617 Antonio Di Lello. 1010 01:06:05,241 --> 01:06:09,116 In those days, you called people by their surname. 1011 01:06:13,575 --> 01:06:16,325 I've never done something for a friend before. 1012 01:06:16,325 --> 01:06:18,283 This is the first time, you know, 1013 01:06:19,283 --> 01:06:23,492 I've done something out of friendship. I had no time to think about it. 1014 01:06:24,742 --> 01:06:27,075 When you asked me, I said yes. 1015 01:06:27,075 --> 01:06:29,784 If I'd had time to think about it, I'd have said no. 1016 01:06:31,241 --> 01:06:33,950 But I didn't have time. And I've realized... 1017 01:06:35,700 --> 01:06:39,325 this is the first time I've been a friend for real, 1018 01:06:39,325 --> 01:06:40,659 willfully a friend. 1019 01:06:42,450 --> 01:06:45,283 At the same time, I don't know what use it is. 1020 01:06:45,283 --> 01:06:48,158 I don't know... 1021 01:06:48,158 --> 01:06:50,909 what use a friend can be where you're at now. 1022 01:06:53,075 --> 01:06:55,408 I never realized I could be a friend, 1023 01:06:55,408 --> 01:06:57,742 that I could be here, 1024 01:06:57,742 --> 01:07:00,283 in the wilds of Romania, surrounded by wolves, 1025 01:07:00,283 --> 01:07:03,950 with a guy and say, "We'll cycle if you want to. 1026 01:07:03,950 --> 01:07:05,909 "If you don't want to, we won't. 1027 01:07:05,909 --> 01:07:09,950 "If you want us to brush the dog, we'll brush the dog." 1028 01:07:09,950 --> 01:07:11,158 This is the first time... 1029 01:07:14,158 --> 01:07:15,325 Oh my God! 1030 01:07:16,533 --> 01:07:18,742 Do you mind if I come closer? 1031 01:07:19,991 --> 01:07:22,908 It isn't for a cuddle, you know! 1032 01:07:23,533 --> 01:07:25,659 - I'll hide behind him. - It's crazy, 1033 01:07:25,659 --> 01:07:27,450 they're shooting at him. 1034 01:07:29,158 --> 01:07:30,617 They're shooting at him now. 1035 01:07:32,325 --> 01:07:34,408 It's a crazy paradox. 1036 01:07:36,700 --> 01:07:39,908 Your child is giving me the best moments of my life. 1037 01:07:39,908 --> 01:07:40,742 Fuck. 1038 01:07:44,575 --> 01:07:47,242 It's a crazy paradox. 1039 01:07:47,659 --> 01:07:50,325 It's absolutely insane. 1040 01:07:52,784 --> 01:07:54,033 Sorry, buddy. 1041 01:08:23,908 --> 01:08:25,408 Smile, OK? 1042 01:08:26,450 --> 01:08:27,659 Please. 1043 01:08:28,033 --> 01:08:29,158 Hang on. 1044 01:08:34,408 --> 01:08:35,659 C'mon, let's go. 1045 01:08:35,659 --> 01:08:38,575 I'm OK. Just take the photo! I want the photo. 1046 01:08:39,157 --> 01:08:40,908 It doesn't matter that I'm crying. 1047 01:08:40,908 --> 01:08:42,492 I want you to smile, Mathias. 1048 01:08:42,492 --> 01:08:45,367 - Like him. - I will smile, give me a minute! 1049 01:08:50,492 --> 01:08:53,116 When we chose the name "Youri", 1050 01:08:53,116 --> 01:08:54,908 we were thinking of Gagarin. 1051 01:08:56,075 --> 01:08:57,659 He came here for a reason. 1052 01:09:00,825 --> 01:09:03,200 His clown's name was Youri Margarine. 1053 01:09:03,617 --> 01:09:04,825 Not bad! 1054 01:09:05,450 --> 01:09:06,991 A great pun. 1055 01:09:07,408 --> 01:09:08,742 Right, buddy... 1056 01:09:09,242 --> 01:09:10,200 Shall we go? 1057 01:09:10,700 --> 01:09:12,200 Bye, Yuri. 1058 01:09:12,824 --> 01:09:16,534 - What's next? The beach? - Yes, let's go to the beach. 1059 01:09:16,534 --> 01:09:17,783 To enjoy the Black Sea! 1060 01:09:24,116 --> 01:09:27,283 Unlike what people think, the Black Sea isn't black. 1061 01:09:27,283 --> 01:09:28,617 Apparently, it is quite dark. 1062 01:09:41,325 --> 01:09:43,283 My God, we've done it! 1063 01:09:43,283 --> 01:09:45,158 We've come a long way. 1064 01:09:45,158 --> 01:09:48,742 From the Atlantic to the Black Sea by bike! 1065 01:09:48,742 --> 01:09:50,033 Or almost. 1066 01:09:50,617 --> 01:09:52,200 Two men and a little dog. 1067 01:09:52,200 --> 01:09:53,783 Two men and a dog. 1068 01:09:59,950 --> 01:10:00,991 Look. 1069 01:10:01,700 --> 01:10:04,075 If we both do this, it makes two Ys. 1070 01:10:05,409 --> 01:10:07,741 Hey, kiddo! 1071 01:10:07,741 --> 01:10:09,659 - It's us. - We're here! 1072 01:10:09,659 --> 01:10:11,492 We're fucking here! 1073 01:10:13,741 --> 01:10:16,367 - Youri, we're here. - We're here! 1074 01:10:23,575 --> 01:10:25,242 This place is wild. 1075 01:10:42,033 --> 01:10:43,367 Right, everyone! 1076 01:11:37,783 --> 01:11:38,825 He looks like you. 1077 01:11:38,825 --> 01:11:40,575 That's why I bought it. 1078 01:11:45,200 --> 01:11:47,075 - Where is it? - That key, the photo. 1079 01:11:47,075 --> 01:11:48,575 Got the key? 1080 01:11:48,575 --> 01:11:50,325 No, I have to call him. 1081 01:11:50,325 --> 01:11:51,950 - But that key... - I got it. 1082 01:11:51,950 --> 01:11:53,492 I recognize the photo. 1083 01:12:09,200 --> 01:12:10,367 Where are you? 1084 01:12:11,992 --> 01:12:13,616 What do you mean, downstairs? 1085 01:12:19,575 --> 01:12:20,741 Shit. 1086 01:12:22,492 --> 01:12:25,658 - Where is he? - I don't know, he said downstairs. 1087 01:12:25,658 --> 01:12:27,117 Josef? 1088 01:12:27,117 --> 01:12:28,783 - Dad? - Joe? 1089 01:12:29,866 --> 01:12:32,158 - Dad? - There he is! 1090 01:12:32,492 --> 01:12:33,825 Oh shit! 1091 01:12:39,825 --> 01:12:41,284 What are you doing here? 1092 01:12:45,783 --> 01:12:47,783 I came to meet Marzi with you. 1093 01:12:49,616 --> 01:12:50,825 All right, big boy? 1094 01:12:50,825 --> 01:12:52,866 - All right, Unc? - How are you? 1095 01:12:55,200 --> 01:12:55,992 We forgot the key! 1096 01:12:56,992 --> 01:12:58,325 Oh fuck! 1097 01:12:59,200 --> 01:13:00,158 Hang on... 1098 01:13:01,992 --> 01:13:03,658 Hang on, I've got it. 1099 01:13:04,033 --> 01:13:06,409 I have the key. I didn't fucking realize. 1100 01:13:06,409 --> 01:13:08,075 Ah, it's the wrong key. 1101 01:13:08,450 --> 01:13:09,992 It isn't the right key. 1102 01:13:11,658 --> 01:13:13,117 Fuck! 1103 01:13:14,033 --> 01:13:15,325 Shitty world. 1104 01:13:15,325 --> 01:13:18,575 Hang on, I'll call the Airbnb guy. 1105 01:13:19,783 --> 01:13:21,992 My God, my God... 1106 01:13:24,950 --> 01:13:26,825 Stop, you're making me cry. 1107 01:13:29,700 --> 01:13:30,992 We're seeing Marzi. 1108 01:13:31,992 --> 01:13:36,200 This is the first time I'm pleased to see someone I don't know. 1109 01:13:38,075 --> 01:13:40,242 We've seen her photo, though. She's cute. 1110 01:13:40,741 --> 01:13:42,700 I saw her on FaceTime with Youri, 1111 01:13:42,700 --> 01:13:44,367 - when he was in Iran. - You did? 1112 01:13:45,658 --> 01:13:47,033 She's an actress. 1113 01:13:51,658 --> 01:13:53,492 You OK, little boy? 1114 01:13:54,575 --> 01:13:55,950 It'll be fine. 1115 01:14:00,575 --> 01:14:02,409 I'm so glad you came. 1116 01:14:10,908 --> 01:14:12,284 It's beautiful. 1117 01:14:44,242 --> 01:14:45,533 Son. 1118 01:14:46,409 --> 01:14:47,658 Dad. 1119 01:14:57,409 --> 01:14:59,741 I'm tired of being stupid. I'm sick of it. 1120 01:15:00,242 --> 01:15:01,616 That's for sure. 1121 01:15:05,575 --> 01:15:08,284 - This is embarrassing, guys. - What is? 1122 01:15:08,284 --> 01:15:09,783 We're not letting go. 1123 01:15:10,159 --> 01:15:12,033 Your old dad and uncle. 1124 01:15:12,033 --> 01:15:14,616 - You're like an escort. - Stop it. 1125 01:15:15,117 --> 01:15:16,242 Look... 1126 01:15:17,575 --> 01:15:19,908 - Doesn't it give you strength? - Loads. 1127 01:15:19,908 --> 01:15:22,616 - This life, and not another. - See? 1128 01:15:22,616 --> 01:15:24,367 This life, and not another. 1129 01:15:24,367 --> 01:15:26,284 You have to get Unc home after. 1130 01:15:26,950 --> 01:15:28,867 You have to get him home. 1131 01:15:29,950 --> 01:15:32,075 - We will. - I like this. 1132 01:15:32,075 --> 01:15:34,033 I'm finally discovering I like it. 1133 01:15:36,075 --> 01:15:38,117 That's because you're older. 1134 01:15:38,117 --> 01:15:41,117 I feel a bit young to enjoy it. 1135 01:15:41,117 --> 01:15:44,033 - Because you're thinking of ugly stuff. - Yeah! 1136 01:15:44,033 --> 01:15:45,700 Think of nice stuff. 1137 01:15:45,700 --> 01:15:47,783 Remember it's your dad and uncle! 1138 01:17:19,284 --> 01:17:21,867 - All right, guys? - Totally stressed. 1139 01:17:21,867 --> 01:17:24,075 - She isn't going to bite us. - For sure. 1140 01:17:24,825 --> 01:17:26,159 Let's rehearse. 1141 01:17:26,159 --> 01:17:27,491 What's your name? 1142 01:17:27,491 --> 01:17:28,825 Mathias. 1143 01:17:28,825 --> 01:17:30,034 - And you? - Josef. 1144 01:17:30,034 --> 01:17:31,242 We have to speak English. 1145 01:17:40,325 --> 01:17:42,908 That's all the English I know. 1146 01:17:45,117 --> 01:17:46,491 Shit, she's here. 1147 01:18:41,408 --> 01:18:44,075 How do you say, "Son rire était merveilleux?" 1148 01:20:30,575 --> 01:20:32,241 To Youri. 1149 01:21:47,241 --> 01:21:50,742 I had a dream last night. I dreamed of Youri. 1150 01:21:53,450 --> 01:21:54,867 He was beautiful. 1151 01:21:55,325 --> 01:21:57,825 He was young, just 17. 1152 01:21:57,825 --> 01:21:59,241 And he said to me, 1153 01:21:59,617 --> 01:22:02,200 "I'm alive, Dad, I'm alive." 1154 01:22:02,575 --> 01:22:04,533 And I said, "No, Youri, you're dead." 1155 01:22:05,241 --> 01:22:06,909 He kept saying, "No, I'm alive." 1156 01:22:07,617 --> 01:22:09,200 Then he put his hand 1157 01:22:09,200 --> 01:22:11,075 on a kind of moving belt, 1158 01:22:11,075 --> 01:22:13,825 you know, a running machine, 1159 01:22:13,825 --> 01:22:16,408 and his hand disappeared then reappeared. 1160 01:22:16,992 --> 01:22:20,116 He showed me that he could disappear and reappear, 1161 01:22:20,116 --> 01:22:21,825 disappear and reappear, 1162 01:22:21,825 --> 01:22:22,909 endlessly. 1163 01:22:24,241 --> 01:22:27,158 And I thought, "Maybe that's what death is? 1164 01:22:27,575 --> 01:22:29,533 "A change of state. 1165 01:22:30,283 --> 01:22:31,950 "He's still alive." 1166 01:22:34,492 --> 01:22:37,991 I prefer to think that than to think Youri is no more. 1167 01:22:38,659 --> 01:22:41,492 I prefer to think he's here by our side, 1168 01:22:42,325 --> 01:22:44,742 but we can't see him. He can only speak to us 1169 01:22:44,742 --> 01:22:46,617 through the people he sends us. 1170 01:22:48,659 --> 01:22:50,700 We don't know any prayers, 1171 01:22:51,659 --> 01:22:53,742 but we can say something. 1172 01:22:58,492 --> 01:23:00,241 You left too soon 1173 01:23:00,867 --> 01:23:02,950 Coming alive only in a dream 1174 01:23:04,033 --> 01:23:05,825 In my glass I drown my sorrow 1175 01:23:06,659 --> 01:23:08,617 Hoping to see you tomorrow 1176 01:23:09,825 --> 01:23:10,700 I recall your laugh 1177 01:23:11,450 --> 01:23:13,158 And put it down in verse 1178 01:23:13,950 --> 01:23:15,991 Each memory makes me cry 1179 01:23:16,742 --> 01:23:19,575 As your every smile hid a sigh 1180 01:23:21,408 --> 01:23:23,492 I thought you were over the worse 1181 01:23:23,492 --> 01:23:25,575 But it was just the reverse 1182 01:23:26,784 --> 01:23:28,991 I was afraid, I didn't dare say 1183 01:23:30,408 --> 01:23:32,909 We try our best not to fall 1184 01:23:34,784 --> 01:23:36,367 It takes courage to end it all 1185 01:23:38,533 --> 01:23:41,991 I can't believe it, I failed to see it coming 1186 01:23:42,784 --> 01:23:44,533 Kiss Grandma for me 1187 01:23:45,825 --> 01:23:47,533 Tell her how my grief grows 1188 01:23:48,116 --> 01:23:50,492 It's not the same story without you 1189 01:23:51,200 --> 01:23:53,367 How could love have lied so? 1190 01:23:53,908 --> 01:23:56,700 As kids we fought but then we grew 1191 01:23:57,158 --> 01:23:59,033 In the corridors I watch you 1192 01:23:59,408 --> 01:24:01,367 How you inspire me 1193 01:24:01,700 --> 01:24:04,533 We compare ourselves, I follow your crazy ideas 1194 01:24:05,158 --> 01:24:06,533 Look 1195 01:24:06,533 --> 01:24:08,825 Look at what you built 1196 01:24:08,825 --> 01:24:10,742 You could have flown so high 1197 01:24:11,116 --> 01:24:13,242 Had you not wanted to die 1198 01:24:18,908 --> 01:24:20,659 We'll see you soon. 1199 01:24:21,700 --> 01:24:23,408 Sure you won't join us? 1200 01:24:23,408 --> 01:24:25,742 I can't, I can't. 1201 01:24:26,367 --> 01:24:27,825 See you in 3 months. 1202 01:24:27,825 --> 01:24:28,659 Be careful. 1203 01:24:29,242 --> 01:24:31,033 - Be very careful. - We will. 1204 01:24:31,033 --> 01:24:32,450 Look after each other. 1205 01:24:34,492 --> 01:24:35,450 Bye. 1206 01:24:35,450 --> 01:24:37,866 I haven't said bye to the dog. Bye, buddy. 1207 01:24:38,617 --> 01:24:39,700 He's got his specs. 1208 01:24:41,367 --> 01:24:42,659 Right... 1209 01:24:42,659 --> 01:24:44,325 It's pretty big, huh? 1210 01:24:44,991 --> 01:24:46,158 Imagine us on a tandem? 1211 01:24:47,450 --> 01:24:48,866 We'd be in China! 1212 01:24:48,866 --> 01:24:51,991 We'd be on the other side of the world by now. 1213 01:24:51,991 --> 01:24:53,534 - Bye, buddy. - Be careful. 1214 01:24:54,450 --> 01:24:56,659 Off we go... Hang on, together! 1215 01:24:56,659 --> 01:24:58,283 1, 2, 3! 1216 01:25:44,492 --> 01:25:48,408 For Youri 1217 01:25:49,659 --> 01:25:54,242 RIDE AWAY 1218 01:25:56,117 --> 01:26:01,950 For our sons 1219 01:26:12,200 --> 01:26:17,075 Romanian Road 1220 01:26:18,450 --> 01:26:23,283 Iron Gates (Serbian Border) 1221 01:26:30,158 --> 01:26:35,325 Szechenyi Baths (Hungary) 1222 01:27:35,908 --> 01:27:38,908 Subtitles by Susannah Rooke 1223 01:27:38,908 --> 01:27:41,741 Subtitling TITRAFILM